[Ennui.]

You're definitely right that the holidays can be a tough time. Since you said this was your aunt, it is likely that someone else in your family may be feeling something similar to you. Even if not, they may know a bit about how to help you through it. So, what I can also suggest to you besides what has already been talked about it speaking with one of your other family members. The two of you can become a bit of a support system for each other, helping each other through when you need to talk. It can help a lot to not go it alone.