[house-of-usher]

I have found it really hard to cover up the marks on my arm and they are progressively getting worse and staying longer. I have no idea what to do and I am so afraid that my parents are going to see them. I tried makeup once before, but it just rubs off on my clothes. Does anyone know a good way to hide them besides makeup and constantly wearing long sleeves? I am quite frightened for summer to come. I don't want anyone to see what I have been doing to myself. I just hate it when people worry about me. It makes me feel smothered and like I am helpless. I just wish that people would stop worrying about me sometimes. Maybe my life would be a little easier and I would not have as much stress.
I truly wonder if I have a place on this earth.
I know from a religious standpoint that everyone is put on this earth for a reason, but sometimes it feels as though I might not have a place.
I just do not know what to do anymore.
Maybe it would be best if I was not here anymore. I wonder if people would truly miss me?