[house-of-usher]

Thank you so much for what you had to say, but I feel as though I can not turn to anyone about any of this. Some days I feel as though I should just end it all that so people don't have to feel obligated to worry and care about me. I understand that I am hurting and that I am afraid of help, but I just don't know if I will ever get better even if I get help from others. I have told some of my friends some of the stuff that I have been going through and they are furious and threaten to force me to consult others, including my parents, about this stuff. I am religious and I have prayed to God about this stuff time and time again, but he has not answered my prayers. I understand that he answers prayers in his own time, but I need his help more than ever. I have no one to turn to and I feel so lost. I have tried to kill myself because I could not deal with it. I just don't know what to do or who to turn to anymore. I just want to be done with all of this.