[Ennui.]

I'm really sorry that you got a doctor like that. I do not agree with what this doctor said at all and really think that maybe you should start finding a new doctor if he is going to treat you like this and not believe what you are saying. It's not fair to you that he is automatically going to say that what you believe is the problem isn't, and to say that you're not really depressed just because you're smiling. That's really not right.

I'm liking the idea of counselling for you as well. They will have a whole lot more of a clue what they are doing and how they can help you, rather than a doctor. They are unbiased and won't automatically disregard what you are saying. That may be a better route for you.

As for the drinking blood question you mentioned up there, I don't find that odd either. I think I've seen others mention that before and there's nothing weird about it.

100 days was really amazing though and I know you can get back there again.