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Unhappy Scratching or cutting - April 4th 2014, 03:56 AM

A urge to cut or scratch myself till I bleed is here....It won't go away, and I want it to go away...Sad thing is...I haven't cut in a month, but I miss it like fucking crazy...I miss the pain, and the blood and the feeling. WHY?
Thing is...I made a promise to never cut again...not just to my family or friends. But to God himself.
I cannot break that promise, I just can't. If I did I would disappoint him and my family.
But if I don't cut, then I'm stuck with the urge. But when it comes to promises to my family and God then I just can't be like Oh well, it won't hurt to do it this one time...
Why in the hell do I want to fucking cut, why in the hell do I miss the blood, pain ect.?????? Lately things have been fine, perfect why are the urges getting stronger???? Please someone help me on this..I don't want to be a failure on this...I don't want my mom to see me cutting again..becuz last time I got sooo addicted I almost loved it soo much I almost hit that vein...I came soo close to being in a casket..and soo close to be looking down and seeing my family grieve and cry over me....Sooo please help me... please?

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