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Hey Beth,

Congratulations for not cutting for a month! You should be proud of yourself. From experience, when you go longer without self-harming the urges will slowly dissipate. This will take some time, but I can promise you that they do fade! There doesn't always have to be a reason to be triggered; moods are easily changed sometimes and causes can remain unknown.

Could you talk to your mom about how you're feeling? Maybe she could offer some support. Since you want a visual of cutting, I have a few suggestions for you. Try taking a red marker or pen and drawing fake injuries on yourself. It'll look like self-harm but it is not harmful. You could paint with red paint, or you could paint your nails red, too! As for the feeling, holding ice gives you a similar sensation.

Best of luck to you!