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Unhappy Really dreading going back to school - August 25th 2014, 09:29 PM
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I'm terrified about going back to school. I'm already getting anxiety,& I'm only thinking about it. I didn't really care about bullying last year, but, I think it'll really effect me this year because
A.) My depression has got a lot worse,& I'm extremely sensitive.
B.) My sister made me realize that I did to "dress good", to have friends. She made me realize people hated me. She even said it.

I'm so stressed about this. I can't stop thinking about it.
Saying that I contemplate suicide a lot, if I do get bullied, that could certainly push me over the edge. I already feel worthless,& useless to everyone. I completely hate myself, because of how my sister treats me. Others too, mainly her.

I know I'll get bullied by people, because they had me,& think I am weird,& ugly.

I really want to kill myself before school starts. I'm sure the students there wouldn't give one shit if I took me life.