[Kate*]

I will only become okay with this new idea when I either fully accept or stop wanting what I know I can't and will never have; or if/when I find something that I like better. I have NO idea when that will be if it will ever happen and even if it does, it doesn't erase my transcript, the financial consequences I incurred for no reason, or give me back the nearly 3 years that I wasted before I figured out that I'm broken and that that is the only reason my dream is impossible

I don't want to hurt you, but I want you to be held accountable for the things that happened that you KNOW were wrong, I want you to learn from what happened to me, and I want you to remember me. I know eventually life will go on and you'll forget I was ever there, but I have to LIVE with this for the rest of my life. I know none of that will happen without a miracle and I'm not sure I sill believe in those.