[Kate*]

The good news: Despite what they told me, I'm FAR from the first person to have this happen.
The bad news: The pain never really goes away.

There has to be a way to gatekeep ETHICALLY without inflicting trauma on the way down.

I NEED to know what I'm going to do next (and that I can succeed at) it's incredibly painful.

Not even going to bed until 5:30 AM, I've lost my Saturday already and to Facebook no less, UGH!

I want so badly to believe you're not like the rest of them, but sometimes I just don't know.

I believed you when you said you all cared, but when you decide someone doesn't belong anymore, (because they refuse to be treated like shit by people who claim to know better and/or become that way themselves), you turn your back faster than they can exhale. That kind of betrayal never heals.

Yesterday, I was done, today I feel like it's going to be okay, tomorrow, who knows? I HATE the fact that this is so turbulent.