[nothereanymore]

Okay. I'll shut up about the stupid show. And for good measure I'll shut up about the books since it's become obvious you could care less about them. I'll stay quiet. I know I'm being annoying anyway. I don't have passion in many things and this is truly it. I get that I talk too much but sure, I'll shut up. I understand how you feel anyway; the sound of my own heartbeat annoys the shit out F me because it just won't fucking stop. But I'll stop it. I will. Don't let yourself think this is what drove me to it, I'm not that petty. No, it's everything in the last ten years. It's that I'm becoming a really awful, selfish, ungrateful person and there's not much hope for me, so why not? Why not? Rest. Sleep. Peace. Death. Why not?