I don't think it is something to be ashamed for. As normal human beings, we need love and attention from everyone around us. You're not an attention seeker, you're just a normal human that also want some love in your life. And probably when we don't get that love, we start to do all other things maybe the extreme ones, in order to make people care about us.
So, basically, don't feel ashamed or even blame yourself because you seem to ask for attention, and because you are a guy. Everyone needs love and attention!
With me, i cut because i don't feel like i can make anyone in this world proud of me. I just think that i have done so many horrible and dissapointing things in my life, therefore i should be punished and this is one of the ways to punish myself for not being good enough.
By the way, you can DM me if you need a talk
