[The-Knight]

Hello,
First off; Well done you for coming here and recognising that things are a bit tough for you at the moment - always the biggest step!

Secondly, Like previous posters state, things are a bit rough at the moment - Do you and your boyfriend openly discuss how/why you feel this way? - Becoming more open with each other is something to try and ease the anxiety.

You also sound very self conscious, is this something you've felt for a long time or is this something quite recent?

Regards.