Building a positive future. Based on an interview I had with a center today it looks like I'll be able to go to residential treatment very soon (hopefully by the end of this week). When I have strong urges I tell myself that it's only a few more days until I can get the help I need, and I reason that I don't want to SH and end up in an inpatient psychiatric ward because A) that would delay getting the treatment I really need, which is residential and B) I want to spend my last days at home with my family, not in a psychiatric ward. I'd hate to go directly from inpatient to residential, assuming residential would even accept me because they might consider me too high a safety risk.

I'm going through a lot but this has kept me going.