I'm trying. But its tough.
A lot of other people who know me in real life just use me to pay for their movies and... kinda just talk to me when they need me to do something for them.
She was the one real friend I had who stayed near me.
I've already tried opening up to other people, but I just got made use of even more ( being asked to buy meals by them... being treated badly and kinda just put on the back burner ) so yeah...
It is... very, very tough.
I've done my very best to do things (feeding cats, donating money to charity, helping older people... listening to other people's problems.. ) But i'll admit the wound in my heart is getting worse...