[Silvan]

Hi.
Since school started on Sep 4 I haven't been thinking of anything else. I think about it all the time and even if I'm forced to focus on sth (e.g. horse riding) school and my problems with studying and interacting with people is constantly at the back of my head. There has been only one time when I actually wasn't thinking about it for more than 10 minutes - when I skyped with someone very important to me. Unfortunately we can talk rarely.
I tried to distract myself with pleasant thoughts many times. I tried my family, old friends, pets, favourite places, best memories. Each time ended with tears because I missed those carefree days.
So I'm basically standing in front of a 'choice' - I can either cry because I miss something or cry because of school.
It doesn't matter what I'm doing. Be it commuting back home, eating, showering. Every day, even on weekends, school's my first thought when I wake up. That's how much impact it has on me and how stressed I am about it...