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Re: Screaming thread. -
October 11th 2017, 07:32 PM
I am struggling so damn much with actually wanting to be alive. I know the holiday season can be difficult. I am trying to distract myself and give myself stuff to look forward too.
Next month I am going to start shopping for Christmas Ornaments and other decorations. I have been, slowly, accumulating presents. I have gifts for everyone except my boyfriend and three of my nieces. I am pretty sure I know what I am getting my boyfriend and one of my nieces. I am just waiting till closer to Christmas.
I don't know what to do. Things...are coming to light ... and I am not sure how to cope. Also not sure if this might be what is stressing me out.
I am thinking about going back to therapy next year. I might start looking again in December, maybe. I will set aside two weeks out of the month to go as well.
IDK, just feel like I am falling apart. The distractions aren't helping.
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