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Re: Say something you wish you could say to their face. -
October 14th 2017, 03:54 AM
This hurt so much because I still love you. You've convinced so many people, and maybe even yourself, that I always lied when I told you I loved you but I never did. I love you and I fucking hate myself for breaking your heart. Tonight, it hurts so bad that I want to die. Instead I'm holding ice cubes in my hands (like my therapist told me to, but in all honesty, I'm going to end up cutting anyway) and drinking. I finally got in contact with the eating disorder clinic and at the support group, I know they'll put me into the anorexia group and I'll be the fattest one there and I'll act like everything is okay but it's not and I'll stop eating anything. I'm not eating much to begin with. I know you worried about that. I think you did at least.
I love you, and I destroyed both of us when I broke up with you. I'm sorry. I fucking hate me too. I'm sorry.
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