I honestly hate myself.
I don't want to go shopping.
I am struggling with the concept of taking the test. I want the job but I am afraid to get my hopes up because I likely won't get hired the first time around. Also, I am stuck in regards to if I should take the higher paying job if I end up qualifying and getting hired. These are all what if's and I know that and I know I likely won't get either.

One makes more money and has a higher chance to promote as well as a higher salary cap overall.

The other thing is something I could see myself potentially liking but it might end up causing me anxiety if I have to drive people around a whole lot.

I'll have to talk it over with my dad if I end up getting ask to work both. I mean, he won't outright tell me what to do but I think he'll make a suggestion.