[Tigereyes]

TW: food restrictions

My work team was very small, and I don't get along with the only coworker who wasn't a supervisor-type. So not really. Talking won't help anyway. It doesn't pay bills. It's highly unlikely I will be able to get a job before I run out of money. I'm trying to reduce my grocery bill by reducing food intake because that's the only way I can save money. But cutting $10/grocery bill twice per month won't pay $1100/month rent...

Also my state is still very bad with covid, so there are no jobs. Not likely I will get one quicker than last time, which took 5 months. And was very bad for me physically and mentally. I need therapy.. in a few years hopefully. I will have $0 to my name come mid-December. And likely no income. That's the biggest issue. I have zero reason to believe it will work out. Never once in my life has anything worked out.

Maybe I should've gone back to work to die. Just like everyone said.