[Gris]

I have this friend and I take friendships really seriously. If I like somebody as a friend a lot in my mind that automatically means they’ll be my friend forever, this usually doesn’t end up well for me but that’s just how it is. In the past, I have been ghosted randomnly by my best friends without explanation. I’m talking 5 year friendships, just gone randomnly one after the other. Because of this I like to be brutally honest with my friends so they do the same with me, if they want to never talk to me again I prefer they say that rather than ghost me. Now this friend I met her in quarantine and we talked for hours everyday, but recently she’s been answering me once every five days. I know she doesn’t like texting so although I was sad, I just waited for her to do whatever she wanted. Today basically she told me she wants to drop her 3 year relationship with her best friend. The reason for this was because of factors that are unknown and that she wants a new life. She wants to get rid of everyone she knows and meet new people, so she’s ignoring everyone she knows because she basically wants to be alone. She says that once she distances herself, she doesn’t care about that person anymore. She says she doesn’t want to do that with me so she’ll try to keep our friendship but it might happen. On one side I’m happy she was so honest with me, on the other hand I’m disappointed she might drop me randomnly and forget I ever existed. She said she doesn’t know what will happen, meaning that I’m supposed to talk to her and just wait for her to get tired of me? Or there might be a chance she might not drop me. I’ve been dropped before, and I don’t want to go through it again, but at the same time I don’t want to ghost her because I’m giving her the benefit of the doubt. I just really don’t know what to do, she basically told me “Hey I’m gonna ignore you for weeks and I may or may not stop giving a f**k about you and forget about your existence.” I’m also sad it seems she won’t keep her promises. We told each other we should interchange bracelets, I made her one but she made me nothing, I ask her to go out and she never wants to go, she told me she wanted to be friends when we are adults, yet she told me she eventually wants to get rid of all her friends. It’s a contradiction, she says she wants to try to be my friend but she eventually wants to get rid of everyone she knows. Do I keep talking to her like nothing happened? Do I ghost her? So I tell her I can’t deal with this straight up? I like to think I can deal with it, but I don’t feel like talking to her if I know she’ll just one day get tired of me and drop off the face of the earth.