Thread: Triggering (Abuse): This feels like abuse? I don’t k ow. But I shouldn’t be scared of my mom
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Exclamation This feels like abuse? I don’t k ow. But I shouldn’t be scared of my mom - May 1st 2021, 11:59 PM
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[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""][FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]CW abuse(?) maybe? Fighting with parents and stuff, panic attack mentions.

So uhh I kinda ran away from my house yesterday and stayed overnight at a friends house...that was fun. I got into a fight with my parents over grades and things escalated and got kinda scary(?) and this wasn’t even the worst time but it’s the third time I’ve been scared if my parents, my mom in particular. Because my dad just yells mostly. But my mom like, pulled in my hair and stuff which freaked me out because of past experiences.

And then they were both crowding in on me and raising their voices and I’m pretty sure I was having a panic attack. Then my mom grabbed my face really hard to get me to face her and I tried to bite her out of instinct and she got mad at me. Then I just kind of ran out and sat on a picnic table in the park for like 20 minutes and cried and tried to avoid a complete mental breakdown. Then it was getting cold and I was scared to go home so I walked to my friends house and they let me stay the night and stuff. I’m back home now and things are kind of ok? My dad apologized for yelling and stuff, but my mom has yet to actually apologize. She never does. This was the tamer of the three times she’s been like, physical.

The first time she was actually driving and we were arguing over something stupid and she grabbed my face, I guess to get me to shut up, and ended up giving me a nosebleed. The second time was the worst. She pulled me off my bed by my hair, and grabbed my face and got angry when I tried to bite her and we almost fought for real, which was scary. She’s yet to actually apologize for any of it. She never apologizes, and she always tries to play the “well you helped escalate it” card, and I don’t think that justifies what she’s done but I don’t know. Every time before its gone back to normal like it didn’t happen but it’s still in th back of my mind, and I’m scared of her. I’m pretty sure it’s abuse but whenever I brought that up or called it that she scoffed. So I don’t know. I hope this is in the right place, sorry if it’s not.[/size][/color][/font][/size][/color][/font]