[WhisperingSilence]

Hi, I have been a victim of sexual abuse, and I can tell you it is not something you want to be a victim of. It shatters you from the inside out, and as others have pointed out - the people who prey on victims etc are not very nice people, what you think is the worst they can do and probably do worse than what you think is the worse. I was a child when I was sexually abused and I only spoke out about it last year. I am now nearly 31 and I will be honest with you I still have nightmares and days where I cannot think about anything but what I went through as a child.
I would really encourage you to speak someone like a professional etc, as you are vulnerable and need help.