[Special Agent]

I don’t even know where to begin honestly or if it’s even worth posting. I feel like I am loosing my mind I feel like I am loosing myself and who I am and that scares me. But most of all I am scared I will never get back to who I was. This hit me out of no where I started not doing things that I once loved doing, I am pushing away family and I don’t even know why they call me and I just can’t bring myself to answer the phone. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I have been through a lot In my life I have been physically and emotionally abused, I have self harmed, I have come really close to suicide a couple times. I have never been in a relationship because I am scared they won’t accept me and because I don’t deserve that kind of love anyway. There is so many things that I would do and I don’t do any of them anymore. I don’t know what to do.

Im sorry if this doesn’t make any sense.