[Ennui.]

I'm sorry that you're going through this! It's definitely not fair that all of these bad things continue to happen to you. You don't deserve it for sure and none of what is happening is your fault. Sometimes things happen that are out of our control and I know it feels awful.

While a lot of horrible things happen, do good things ever come your way, even small things? It could be as little as someone complimenting your outfit or something bigger like getting the promotion at work that you've been wanting. Those little things do add up and are things you should try and be happy about. I'm not saying they magically negate all the bad that has happened but they show that there is at least a little bit of positivity left in this world that is worth holding on for.

What brings you joy and makes you feel positive? It can be a place, an activity, or even a person. Try and make a list of things that do make you feel happy or hopeful about the future. That way when you're feeling low you can try to do some of those activities, go to those places, or hang out with the people in your life that make you feel good. It can help to have a list ahead of time because when we are stuck in a low moment it's hard to think of the positive things that make us feel good, and so we're less likely to do those things. At least with them written down you'll have a reminder so you won't have to stop and think about what you can do.

I'm not sure what bad things have happened to you, but don't let them win. You're fighting a battle every day, and you've survived 100% of the tough things that life has thrown your way so far. Be proud of that! You've gotten through even when you've thought you can't and have opened your eyes to see another day. That takes a lot sometimes but is actually a great accomplishment. It's always a win to survive on the days when we don't want to.

If there is anyone you can talk to in your life, I would do that. I bet nobody wants to see you go through this alone. Maybe you can write someone a letter or text message about what you are feeling and they can help support you. It helps to have people in your corner who are looking out for you through all this.

Also find ways to express what you're feeling such as writing or art. Don't just express the bad moments, though (although it's okay to dos o). You can even write or do art about the happy moments so you have something uplifting to look at later on.

I know you can do this!