[Silvan]

Hi,

thanks for reaching out. I'm really sorry about what you've been through and that you've been struggling.

Addiction can destroy lives - not only yours, but of those around you, too - as well as your body and mind. Vodka is strong alcohol that, consumed regularly and/or in large quantities, would lead to irreversible changes in your brain and other organs. Since your organism is not fully developed yet, alcohol would most likely impede or stop the natural development.
https://www.cdc.gov/alcohol/fact-sheets/alcohol-use.htm

What is more, addiction may lead to financial problems (spending all one's money on the substance), difficulty studying/working/maintaining a job (spending most of one's time intoxicated), as well as relationship problems (difficulty making and keeping friends or romantic partners, and hurting those that stay).

Addiction is a vicious cycle which gets worse and more difficult to break out of every time you give in. However, it's a very good sign that you are so young yet aware of the problem and its possible consequences. What happened to you isn't your fault, and you're on a good path asking and seeking help here! As Emmie asked above, is it possible for you to contact some adults about your problem? If you don't want to involve people you know, perhaps you could get in touch with some NGOs or local communities that specialise in this topic. Depending on where you're located, there might even be a community group your age. Reaching for help is crucial, and everything will be much easier to bear if you find some supportive people around you. I'm keeping my fingers crossed and if you need any further help, don't hesitate to reach out here, via DM or Discord. Me or any other Staff member will always be happy to help you as much as we can. Take care! xx Sue