[Soda_Voxel]

Recently my anxiety is the worst it has ever been. While before this year I only ever had had one panic attack that was without reason, now it seems I'm having at least one every day. I don't understand what has changed or why it's happening.

these constant panic attacks are making me suicidal. I'm so terrified and stressed and uncomfortable without reason that I want to die just so I can avoid it. Just so I can escape and be at peace and not feel panicked anymore.

ironically the idea of killing myself scares the hell out of me. I mean, obviously it does...but in my brain I rationalise it as "one final panic to be rid of them all". It's getting so bad. I hate this so, so much.