[WhisperingSilence]

Okay long story short, this week I was like watching tv and a segment on the tv show was a celebrity (it was like a chat show) was on it talking about his abusive childhood and his alcoholic dad. and the stuff he was like talking about I could relate to , I couldn't relate to all of it but there were lots of things I could like relate too, and since then its like bought up alot of memories of my childhood... things that I haven't like dealt with or like really spoke about alot... things that I would rather not think about. These memories are like also bringing up alot of questions about my childhood and why no-one like really ever helped or did anything to help.
And now I just feel angry at the world, angry at people who could have helped but didn't , angry about how things were and angry about how things could have been different if someone only intervened... and by the time someone did intervene my adhd and autism were blamed... and how I was told I was the one who like needed anger management help...
And now I just feel trapped with the memories... like I am now prisoner of my own mind.
And I don't know what to do, I've had trauma therapy before, I've had CBT, I've had DBT...
I'm struggling and I'm scared my anger is going to come out in unhealthy ways , the urges to self harm are pretty intense too.
I kind of want to try and contact the celebrity but I know that would be like super weird...