[Em0bxy]

When the thoughts come back, I get depressed, when I'm depressed, I get suicidal. Theres no way of winning. I really wanna die, but my dad just denied residential for me because of the abuse stories we were told by someone who's child went to a program like the one I was gonna go to. but I'm not going. I was literally crying yesterday in front of my teacher because I just didn't want to go. She kept asking if I needed the guidance counselor, which she already knew the situation, so I kept saying no. I didn't even ask before I told her what was going on. I was like "My med provider and her manager are trying to push me into residential and I don't want to go..." And I started crying.