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Originally Posted by Em0bxy
Yeah. Tomorrow was supposed to be my admission date but I'm not going!! FOr once things are working in my favor.
-Rae
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I hope things really work your favor. According to your profile, you arent even a teenager yet. Mental illness can take several different trajectories. However, your last several posts in this forum indicate several reasons for psychiatric help. Mental illness often intensifies in the teen years and early 20s. Im not surprised your psych has concerns. Frankly, they are valid. Hopefully it is just teen angst starting and will go away by your mid-teens. It is also possible that you are having early symptoms of a more severe disorder that will begin in late adolescence or early adulthood. Hopefully that is not the case. You don't necessarily need medication or inpatient treatment, but you absolutely need at least some outpatient monitoring by a professional and meds if they suggest it. There is no good time to struggle with mental health. It will always be inconvenient, just as any other chronic illness. However, it is better for this story to end with "I had some mental health episodes as a kid but now Im fine" rather than "It started as a kid and now need 3 meds to keep some sense of stability, but still struggle to work". Your life now is just the trial period. Although I think it is a huge injustice to struggle with mental health to this level during childhood, it is better to address it during this period. It is not like you are having fun or enjoying childhood being mentally ill. Doing something now could actually bring you out of this and bring childhood back even if the answer for now is meds with the side effects of that. You probably won't need it for life, particularly if you seek help now. But you absolutely need to be seeing a professional even if you chose to not receive inpatient. What you are experiencing is fairly intense for your age. The underlying cause should be evaluated (isn't scary of a process at all...just some questions and some quick cognitive profile tests) for immediate treatment and then follow ups to see if you are improving or getting worse. It is less scary than standardized educational testing. It isn't some huge deal to receive an evaluation. You need to be overseen to determine which direction you are going as your brain still has quite a bit of further development at this age. None of your posts seemed to describe what direction this is going. That is literally the most important question in your life right now.