ello,
sooooo yea idk im sort of this 'im a boy in a girl kinda way and also a girl in a boy kinda way and im also neither but im also both' kind of situation ;-; i have no idea what id call myself but all i know is something kind of feels...off-ish? like idk being a boy isn't so bad and it's not like im disgusted with my anatomy per
se. like, idk i like my penis and im comfortable with my genitals function/aesthetic/sexual wise but it also feels kinda, sorta weird-ish, to have one but like not in a disgust way? and girls are really pretty and maybe i'd like to look like one but idk i also kind of enjoy being this twinky feminine boyish genderless amoeba thing lol.
my mom is rly accepting and doesn't mind when my girl friends help paint my nails and toes and let me have old clothes they don't want or like so i'm not worried too much about that, but would i still even be a trans girl if i like my penis and would keep it and idk if i start to growing body hair will i feel differently idk it's all just so aaaaaaa ;-; identity is so hard and idk what to think and my body has to grow a lot and everything feels weird and uncertain halp pls none of it makes sense qwq