[Em0bxy]

So yesterday there was a lot of fighting between me and my grandmother, and my mom made a snide remark, causing my dad to get involved. Last time there was a lot of stress on him he had some heart attack like symptoms...never went to the ER - resolved quickly.
Yesterday my father was on his hands and knees in the kitchen, screaming, crying, grasping at his chest. I can't get the image out of my head. I went to run away(the stress was my fault) and then he went outside after me, and he was on his hands and knees again outside, screaming and crying, saying "Please come back! You're the only reason I have left to live! Please I can't lose you!"
I can't look in my kitchen without completely zoning out now because of what I saw. Idk if it's a new trauma or not, but whenever I hear the word "dying" I can only picture my father yesterday. Whenever I see my kitchen and the driveway outside I see my father on his knees.
We almost had to call an ambulance for him, but once I calmed down, he was able to lower his blood pressure and the chest pains and arm pain went away.
My dad has a doctors appointment on July 11th with a cardiologist I believe to get his heart in check. I'm just really scared...I've never seen my father that weak and in pain...NEVER. He's a 38 year old male, his birthdays in July, mines in September, I'm almost done with middle school(One year left!), and I want him to see me graduate, but after yesterday, I don't know if that's going to happen. I'm so scared...