[Em0bxy]

So I used to struggle with hallucinations, had since fourth grade. But they stopped sometime mid-April...well, they're back. Story time! Yesterday during school was day 2 of the hallucinations being back, and they were BAD. I mean to the point I didn't know if one of them was real or not. So in what my lovely school is changing to ELA - LA, I started to see black, blurry, indistinct figures, and they were almost everywhere. I had my head down and a hand through my hair to block my vision(if you can imagine how that looks). My teacher, let's call her RM. RM came over and asked if I was okay. I said no. We stepped out of the room. "Was it the movie?" She asked. "No," I stated. She had worked so hard to prevent me from being triggered due to the movie we were watching.. I glanced behind her for a split second and I saw one of the blurry figures, expect this time more realistic, I knew it was fake still. Later in gym class, I'd say 1.5 hours later. I was looking into the boys locker room office window, and I saw a man, standing there, all shady and black, looking at me. This man looked realer than I was feeling, so I asked my friend E if she saw it. "What man?" She asked. She moved around to see if she could see it more. Then I proceeded to ask my friends T and D about it. T made me go tell a teacher, and D comforted me. I went up to my teacher, lets call him AR. AR was helping someone, but then when he finished I stated "can we speak for a moment?" he said sure. We stepped to the side and I almost started crying. "I'm hallucinating really badly right now and it's freaking me out," I said, with a quiet and shaky voice(If you can't tell I'm a writer by how I do my said LOL). "Okay, let's go to the nurse and get you some help," He reassured me. As we walked to the nurse he asked what I was seeing. I explained briefly and all he said was "oh" but it didn't phase me. That's what I would have said too. Now, up to this moment I hadn't been feeling much paranoia besides my usual "Omg is L and K going to kill me again?!" We reached the gym doors and I felt like even AR was going to hurt me. I stepped behind him a little to we weren't side by side and said "It's giving me really bad paranoia" and he said "you're okay, let's go get you some help, okay?" ABOUT HALF AN HOUR LATER the social worker came in. I talked to her a little bit and then she called my mother. Turns out RK(the social worker) and SC(The Behavioral Tech Support) was bringing me home. As I got into RK's car I got a spike of paranoia, so I didn't talk the whole ride and texted my mother. For the half an hour I was in the nurses office, I spent it texting my mother and best friend and boyfriend. I have a psych appointment today and my mother told me to tell my psych about what's been going on with the hallucinations.
I'm scared. I don't know what's going on. I don't know how to deal with this even though nobody knew up until this year, and I've struggled with them since fourth grade(I'm going into eighth)...