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Sorry for being so inactive, but I've been busy with real life stuff and I ended up getting word back from the testing my doctor's did. I did in fact get diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis, and it is quite accute. I'm going to try to not get too doomer about it, and I definitely was letting my OCD and anxiety take over and make me assume the worst in my previous messages. It's going to be really difficult to deal with, and it really sucks knowing I will be chronically ill with this for the rest of my life, but I'm sure I'll be able to manage. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared, but luckily my doctor said I should be able to still play in my football club which is good.
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In regards to my puberty related stuff, she did perform a thorough examination of my body and did blood work, I luckily didn't get erect while she was checking my body, but it was still really awkward. The labs results did indicate that I am a healthy teenage boy, but I do have a significantly lower amount of testosterone in my body than other boys my age do, but also noticed a higher than average level of estrogen in my body as well as a deficiency in iron and vitamin d. my vocal chords were also examined and it was noticed how thin they are and that it is probably due to the lack of testosterone that is causing my voice to remain so high pitched and all of the above explains the other factors like my lack of pubic hair and facial/body hair and other factors.

But yeah, there's the update for y'all. In short, I have cystic fibrosis and always will. My family members who've had it have tended to die a lot younger than the other members of my family so my mom is utterly heartbroken and distraught. I'm scared about it, but I have the condition in a time with far better medical technology than there was when my relatives died from it. So there's hope, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't very nervous and upset about it.