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STRANGERS TO FRIENDS TO BF+GF TO STRANGERS
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I walked past you in the halls of an elementary school
I didn’t know your name
But I knew you were in my grade
Everyone talked about how kind you were and how gorgeous you were
Yet I didn’t pay attention to your name
Now we’re in early middle school, and we have classes together
I learned your name was Eric
I learned that you were on my 5th-grade bus route
I learned that you were way smarter than I could dream of being
Now we’re in 6th grade
I develop feelings for you
I want to spend every moment with you
You’re brown eyes reminded me of Reese's chocolate
The way you talked about yourself reminded me of myself
In a bad way
So I tried to build your confidence
In 7th grade, you still struggled with self-confidence, and I let it slip
I liked you
It gave you an ego boost, but you were taken
It shattered my heart
All I was to you was an ego-boosting toy
You flirted with me and then said she could never find out, as if I started it
After I was gone for a while and came back, I found out the news
You could be mine
I told you I liked you again and asked if you wanted to be my boyfriend
You said yes, but on one condition
You didn’t know I’d do anything just to have you be mine
The flirting becomes real
We didn’t have to pretend like we never did it
Until you said the words ‘nobody could know’
My heart shattered
You’d use me as a toy to flirt with and make my heart get all lovey-dovey
Just to say I couldn’t even tell my best friend
I said deal because I didn’t notice the red flags
You sat with me occasionally
But you often kept it quiet
You’d pull out my note whenever I’d be too loud to make me shut up
And I did
I did as you wanted when you wanted
When you flirted with me, I flirted with you, until you said it was enough
After a month of all of this
I got sick of being the hidden girlfriend
I got sick of being the girlfriend you talked to when you wanted
I got sick of being the girlfriend you flirted with when you were horny, and that was it
I typed a brief breakup note
Handed it to you
Let you read it and process it
And grabbed my phone back and left the area
I didn’t want to break up with you
I loved you
But I was done just being something hidden and quiet
That’s how we went from
Strangers
To friends
To bf+gf
To strangers
All in three years
-Madison-