Thread: Triggering (Suicide): I need out
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Exclamation I need out - July 24th 2025, 09:20 AM

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So I've been suicidal since fifth grade, when I got sexually abused and jumped twice. Now I'm going into eighth grade, and I'm still suicidal. 38 minutes ago, I tried to commit suicide. I'm contemplating not telling my therapist about it. I'll end up at the ER, and my family doesn't need that. Since mine is at a PHP/IOP program, they'll put it in as a PCP, so I'll have to be inpatient. None of my suicide attempts have knocked any sense into me that it's not the way. Like, I KNOW it's not the way, but it's fucking easier than anything else. I might try again tbh. I wish suicide could be painless, like a prick of a needle when you're getting a shot, but it's not. And at this point, I don't even care. I just need out of this world. This world is a motherfucking cruel place. I can't take it anymore. I need out, I feel like a dog in a kennel who has the zoomies, I can't keep up, I want out...I NEED out...should I tell my therapist...?



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