[oceaneyes95]

Here’s the thing, y’all. As a Christian, I have the HARDEST time forgiving. I could hold a grudge like none other. That’s caused myself a lot more hurt than I ever wanted to go through. Years ago I went through some really hard stuff. I had a lot of resentment towards my church family for not, I don’t know “rescuing me” I guess. But, the challenge is, I didn’t really give them the chance to. Not only did I HIDE the struggles in my life, but I covered it up for my abusers. Had I gone to any one of those people, and told them “Look, I’ve been sexually assaulted, and trafficked, and now I’m pregnant.” They would’ve helped me. But, I was ONLINE, meaning SOCIAL MEDIA. I was constantly telling some bs story about how blessed, and happy I was, and all that. So, then when I came out as a victim, some didn’t even believe me, and others just didn’t care because I had gotten on their bad side by bragging and accusing everyone of being “jealous of me”. Those people didn’t even have the chance to rescue me from my abusers. So, I forgive them. I’m at peace now. I’m safe, and recovered. Now I really am blessed and highly favored and I’m happy now.