[FONT=""][COLOR=""][SIZE=""]Hey all. So I've been with my boyfriend officially since like November/December of last year. Things have been great, but there's been a few conversations about sex, and he's been really sweet, he's never tried to pressure me or anything, but I'm starting to feel bad because I still don't really feel ready. For context, I'm a virgin and he's not, and I do think that's part of it, and he knows it too, because sex can be scary, but it's literally to the point where whenever the conversation comes up, or he asks about it (again, not in a pressuring or guilting way) I literally tense up a bit. Hell, I even started tearing up last time not because I was upset, I just started feeling so emotional for some reason. He's admitted he's a very sexual person, and he's clearly said he wants to have sex with me, make me feel good, etc. when I'm ready. I'm just worried if I'll ever be ready, and I don't think that's fair to him, because there is a part of me that wants that and wants to make him feel good too- While some of it is definitely self consciousness on my end (about hygiene, smell, appearance, being raised religious even if I'm not anymore, etc.) and the virgin thing, part of me wonders if there's more too it? I'm just not sure- If it is just fear though, is there a way to like- work on that? Or help me with that? I don't think I'm asexual, the idea of sex itself doesn't really bother me, I've watched and read explicit things before, It's just for some reason when it's a real situation and the possibility of actually doing it comes up, I freeze. And I don't want to do that. I really love this guy, and I want him to be happy (and he would say that he's happy if I'm happy but I know he really would like to have sex with me, even though he's being incredibly patient and stuff). And I'm just not sure what to do[/size][/color][/font]