[Astro04]

Hello there!
first of all thanks for being so honest and open.
it takes a lot of courage to post something like this. I totally get how you’re feeling. It’s completely normal to be scared and tense up, especially as a virgin when he’s not. The fact that you even teared up shows your body is still protecting you, and that’s okay. You shouldn’t push through it just to make him happy.
That said, I’m gonna be real with you: it’s great that he’s being patient now, but you can’t drag this out for too long. If months keep passing with no real progress, the frustration will probably build on his side (even if he doesn’t show it right away). A lot of relationships fizzle out exactly because of this mismatch in sexual timing, even when the couple really cares about each other.
Don't be scared to make your choice.