[~Misguided Ghosts~]

Hey!

I think being anxious about your first time is normal to some extent, although for you it seems to be taking over a little bit. Remember not to force yourself to have sex when you're not ready. There's no rush to have your first time, and those who are good for you will understand.

Maybe you can talk to him about "setting the mood." For example, you might be able to set up the bedroom/where you want to have sex in a way that makes it more comfortable or inviting for you. It also might help if you do foreplay before you start with the actual act of sex. We can't go into tons of detail but it may be things like kissing or touching in certain ways before starting penetrative sex. It may make you feel more "ready."