[savealife723]

thank you for trying to help me so much.
both of you.
i am really glad that i have my friend to help so much.
we used to talk about it a lot, and now we talk whenever he sees me doing it, or when he knows i'm really struggling. so yes, he's always there to talk. (:
i have a huge fear of people in real life, and even though a counselor would be good, i am doing everything i can to get out of going. i can't even go to the store, or check the mail just because my fear of people is so big and it causes major anxiety.
so i'm not sure i can do that.
my youth pastor, or one of the two, is a counselor at a school, and he is studying physcology. so maybe i could just talk to him about it since i know him already.
but i know if God calls me to counseling, i should go, and even through my fears, because i know God will be right there with me.
I will just have to follow my calling.
but right now, self harm controls my life.