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Exclamation MY Addiction - February 10th 2010, 12:28 AM
Hi, I am new to all of this, but I believe I must get it out. My friends never sit and just LISTEN. So I resort to cutting myself. My parents don't know, and only a very close friend and boyfriend know. It is so addicting, to feel the razor on my arm, to feel the pain and see the blood. It makes me feel good for awhile, but then it goes away, and i do it over and over and over. I am afraid I am becoming addicted, and i want to stop, but I just can't I do it to feel free and be happy, and forget my past and it makes me feel like maybe I am not as horrible a kid my dad says I am or as bad a friend they say I am, or as ugly as they think I am. This has helped me alot, but its not as relieving as the cutting.