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I hate this addiction - January 27th 2009, 08:50 AM


2 Months and 1 Week of no SH.
2 Months and 1 Week of absolute torture.

This is the longest I've ever been without self harm, I don't even feel that proud of it. I mean, yeah there's a part of me thats thinking "well done, you've come so far" but there's a bigger part of me thats saying "get that blade, drag it across your arm/legs/stomach, you'll feel much better. think of that release, think of how peaceful you'll feel"

I hate that voice, I want to do well... But I want to feel the amazingness that I used to feel, my old lover, my old friend. The one who supported me through everything yet made me hurt so much.