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				Re: I hate this addiction - 
            
          
		
		
				
		
				January 28th 2009, 03:17 PM
			
			
			
		 
		
	
                
            	
		
		
Keep getting images in my head of cutting deep on my arm. Its horrible yet wonderful at the same time. 
I want to be better. I've had enough of this shit, 5 years of constant self harm is hard.  
I know how far i've come, yet it seems so far from home, what i'm so used to being. 
If i go back to self harm, it'll lead to severe depression, bad eating, suicide attempts, psychiatric hospitals. Thats what's happened in the past. 
I want to listen to the good voice, but the bad voice is strong, and I dont know how long I can fight it...
 
		
	
		
		
                
		
		
		
	
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