yes i would gladly accept your mental hug
and yes again, that's what i want, friends like that. people who i can just hang out with, spend time with them. even just 1 friend i'll be happy with. not people who only know me when they want something. i've had enough of that
i don't know how to go about "getting out there" though. i can't go back to high school anymore now that i'm 18. i dropped out when i was 13. i wish i didn't now, but i can't change the past. i don't know of any other schools, places, courses or anything like that. i've even searched google in my area, just can't find anything. maybe i don't know how or where to look?