An
ED is never about weight, you know. You can try to express yourself, little by little, try to write some poetry or such. You want an
ED to control something? Control your food intake and then, this sickness will control you. Give up on eating will only give you health problems.
AND sometimes weirdos are meant to do great things. Try to find something you like and work on it. Why do you think you are weird? You probably know what your preferences are, and not many people do so at your age, so thnk you're somehow lucky.
You can get over this, don't let it go further.
If you need to talk, I'd be glad to listen to you
All the best xx