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Believe it or not, it most likely has nothing to do with the food. I have had many friends who have suffered from eating disorders and also from cutting and other types of self harming things. Really, both cutting and eating disorders are one in the same, because a big underlined motif (At least one of them) is the goal to gain control.

I suspect that something may have happened in your past, something that made you suffer on the inside mentally and emotionally. I also believe the food has nothing to do with it.

You do what you do, because perhaps it gives you a sense of control, in a life that seems rather chaotic otherwise. You have control of your life, you control your weight, and you defy the natural order of your system, from where your mind is standing and this self consciousness you have of yourself, you are taking command of your body. The one tangible, or controllable aspect of your life. Though there are many other motives of eating disorders and etc, this is a big one.

Whether that is what your case is or not, I can tell you that this will not solve anything for you, in fact over time it will progressively get worse. You are young, and you are in a position to turn this thing around, eating disorders are things that can be overcome actually, more so than most. You are no doubt a beautiful young girl, with much ahead of you.

As hard is it is, you will need to try to seek some help from either your parents, or an adult you trust. A Therapist can help you explore your mind and find out really why you are doing what you do. When you find the problem, you can find the solution. This whole thing is nothing to be ashamed about, and you have to trust that people will be willing to help you. A step at a time you can fix this, you just need to take the first step now and let everyone know what is going on.

It's far better to let them know, then have them find out on their own.

IF you need any help fighting this, feel free to contact me anytime. I'll be here daily.