[Alucard]

I really hate feeling like this towards you because it downright terrifies me to death of what you would do or how you would respond. I know you pretty well though, at least I think I do. But despite me wanting something more between us with every fiber of my being I know it will never happen. Because if it did and it doesn't work, I know I would lose you forever and I'd rather die than let that happen. I guess the only thing that I have left to hang to is your friendship and cherish every moment I have with you.