Hey. I had a bit of a similar situation a few years ago. Fell into illegal prostitution.
Try getting a job. A real one. People work hard for their money. And so should you.
Next time you get the urge... remind yourself that you are fully responsible for the decisions you make... and if you start making the right decisions then maybe you won't feel so much guilt.
Just remember you didn't steal that cadilac. You chose not to. You had self control. So far so good.
PM if you wanna chat.