[Dream]

I'm guessing it is too late to submit the condom as evidence? I think you should keep the possibility of legal action open if you can.

What he did was wrong and illegal; there is no question about it. I disagree and think that you don't need to seek reconciliation or anything from him; it is his fault regardless of whether or not he was drunk, and being drunk is no excuse. He took advantage of you when you were drunk, and he did it in a horrible way. He deserves to go to jail for what he did in my opinion.

You were hurt both physically and mentally. As for the physical, if it still hurts, you should probably see a doctor who specializes in that area to see if there is anything they can do for you, or you should at least get some pain medication if there is nothing. I'm concerned for your physical health. As for the mental, it sounds like you are still in shock from the event. I don't know what to say; it is so horrible. I know that you can recover, and you can still have a special someone in the future, but for now it is just going to be difficult and that wont seem so appealing. So I feel kind of like a jerk for saying that. This isn't your fault.

I don't expect you to be able to deal with things right now, and realistically, nobody else should either (but of course, they don't know). I think you need to give yourself space and time, and don't bother at all with the other guy who says he wants you. It is okay to see someone with training about this if you want.