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Please don't Faith!!! You are strong...you are stronger than me!!! You have Cody, Darren, and me!!! We are all here for you!!! Please don't leave...It will hurt so much and I don't think I can handle that right now, because you are so important to me!!! Please, stay...I can't stop you, but please just stay...

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Just talk to me then...please, I don't want you to leave...you are so important to me...just please talk to me...not even about why, just about anything...please?

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Faith, I know you can do this. Please just stay strong. I can't stand to lose you. You say we will just go on. I honestly don't know if that will be true for me. You mean so much to all of us. You have the strength to keep going, I know you do. Just dig deep, find that strength, things are going to get better.

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You aren't fucked up!!! And even if you don't have anything to say, can you listen???

So, when I first read your post a few days ago actually, it feels longer than that, I felt really bad...and then I posted up a message, because I knew that you needed help...you were asking for help...I wanted to help you...and then I started posting a lot more and I started to worry that you wouldn't be here the next day, and it scared me...and I started to feel a little bit better, knowing that you were alive and that I might have helped you in the smallest way...even if I didn't, I don't know if I did or not...And then I started to become more and more scared for your life with ever post i made, and everytime you said you wanted to leave...you can even ask cody, I was freaking out when you got offline like two days ago or something, without saying that you were going to be there the day after...and I cared for you then and it has only increased...If I lose you, I don't know if I am going to make it...because I am not as strong as you are...and if you are gone, I might leave too...

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You have Cody! (he may be a tad strange so be wary) but you have him. He's so much better than me. I don't know what I was looking for when I made this and I still don't know now. Subconsciously maybe I wanted to be helped but that's gone, there's no part of me that wants to stay. Every part of me just wants to leave tonight.
Cody, Darren and the rest of the population of TH can take care of you. They really are amazing people! They won't let you slip.

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I want you too!!! You are really really important to me and I love you!!! You are a really really good person and I know you are strong because if you weren't you would have left by now!!!

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Faith, every part of you wants to leave? Are you sure that there is not any part of you that wants to stay. I mean, you're still posting, why would you even bother if no part of you wanted to stay. And if a part of you does want to stay, no matter how small, then I really don't see how you can make a decision this big, and killing yourself is the biggest decision you will ever make. If there is even the slightest, tiniest, most minuscule shred of doubt in your mind, you really can't do this. I mean, you should be absolutely positive, and since you are still posting, I don't think you are.

And how can you expect me to take care of Siera when I'm not so sure I won't need taking care of. I'll sure do my best, but I can't guarantee anything. You really mean so much to me, I don't want to lose you Faith.

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then why are you still posting!!!??? I think that maybe the littlest part of you wants to be here...and that part could make the choice for you...please stay...I don't know what I will do if you leave...

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I've done all I've needed to do. Thank you all 3 of you. You don't know how much it means.

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No...please faith...don't go!!!

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Faith, I really hope that you're ok. I love you and Siera loves you.

Hope I can talk to you tomorrow

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i love you too :( i wishhhh that it'll all get better with a miracle. they DO happen :)

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Don't say you love me. It just isn't true.
I'm still here, bloody amazing how one phonecall can turn everything around.

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Faith, do you have any idea how happy I am? I was so scared for you last night. And Siera was freaking out.

How're you?

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Yeah, more like tweaking out!!! Damn it faith you scared the living hell out of me!!! I am so happy you aren't dead!!! I was really really going crazy...as cody said, I was freaking out...

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I am just really glade that you are here faith...you don't know know happy that makes me...

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You are strong, I know you can get through this!!! And I am here for you and cody and darren are too...

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I can't stop worrying...I am just not that type of person...and we can't stop you...we want to help you get through this, but it is in your hands...not ours...this is your decision...

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I am going to miss you...I really wish that you wouldn't leave, but wishing isn't going to do me any good...you are so important to me...I just wish that you could be happy and not have to do this...

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You know everything about you, shouldn't you be important to yourself? Throwing away your chance at life doesn't seem like something you would do to someone who's important to you.

We don't have to know everything about you to know that you deserve the opportunity to live and grow and find happiness. You have to discover for yourself that you're worth it, otherwise it doesn't matter what we think.

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Faith, you are so so so important to me and darren and cody!!! I love you so much and you can't tell me that i don't because they are my feelings!!! I care so much!!! You're so important!!!

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No, you are having a hard time...I complain a bunch more and yeah, you worry me, you tell me goodbye and that you are done with life...that usually worries people!!! and I care and love you because you are faith and I just feel that way...you are really strong, and nice, etc...

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I'd never move on!!! I would never forget you!!! There is so much to care and love about you!!! Truely, there is, I know it and Cody knows it!!!

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Well, you can't always get what you want!!! I want you to stay here!!! I want you to live!!! I am not ever going to forget you!!!

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No, it will affect me!!! Last night I was bawling because I thought you were gone...I was going to leave TH...because if I couldn't save you there wasn't a need for me...I know it will affect me if you die because I thought you did last night and I know how horrible I felt!!!

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